This picture was taken on the Old Bridge (Love Bridge) in Heidelberg, Germany. One weekend my coworker asked if I wanted to go with her and a friend out of town. If you know me, you know I love road trips. Before she finished asking the question, I said yes! Truth is, I needed this trip. I slowly became tired of locking myself inside my room. I couldn’t seem to get my mind off of the break up. I didn’t know God would use this getaway to get my heart’s attention.
I looked at all the happy couples hugging, taking pictures, and writing promises on their love locks before fastening them to the bridge. I felt empty, scarred, and emotionally torn. It has been 3 years since the breakup and I can honestly say, God used a dead situation to draw me back to Him.
I looked over the bridge, gazing at my reflection in the water. I couldn’t help but notice the glare that beamed from my left hand. As I looked at the pre-engagement ring, I remembered his promise; “I will wait for you.” A few months later, he cheated. Then, I stopped hearing from him. I began to tear up as I reflected on the emptiness of his words. I thought, “How can a person be so roofless?” As I turned away from my reflection, a gentle voice spoke softly to my heart saying, “Now you know how it feels.”
Immediately, I thought about the promise I made to God. I told Him I would wait until I married the person He created for me before giving myself to a guy. A few months later, I broke my promise.
It didn’t hit me until the conviction of my heart confronted me. I spent days pointing at the guy’s wrongdoing, without ever considering my own. The tables turned and it didn’t feel so well. There I was, left feeling how God felt after breaking the promise I made to Him.
I stood lost for words. I was repentant in my heart that day, but not only did I want to verbally repent, I wanted to show God my apology was sincere through my actions. I took off the ring, and threw it away −never looking back.
That day I learned God has emotions too. God created us for His purpose and we are His most valuable creation. He is a jealous God (Exodus 34:14), and wants our hearts, not empty promises.
When you fall short...
Unlike humans, God is faithful, and keeps His promises. (Numbers 23:19) Even after we’ve fallen short of God, He still reaches His arm down for us to grab a hold of Him. He then cleanses us and sets us on our feet again.
Know that true repentance starts with both a changed mind and heart, resulting in changed actions. No matter the mistake/bad decision(s) you’ve made, God’s love is unconditional. He’s longing for you to run into His forgiving arms.
If this piece of my testimony has encouraged you, please share it in hopes that others will also be encouraged.
I love you always,